*I hope you have some water proof mascara on and a hankie handy cause Freya write US (that doesn’t happen very often!) a special letter on her one year anniversary*
Dear Moon and UC:
It’s my one year anniversary commenting on LTT! I finally came out of lurkdom on April 19, 2009, and commented on a post on Kellan. I’d been hanging out on LTR and LTT for about a month, since the Twilight DVD came out, and I saw how cute Rob was when he talked on the commentary, and I proceeded to Google everything Twi-related. Which, of course, led me to you.
I have to get a little Twintimental and Twilosophic here, which is not my normal way, but I have to say, Twilight and LTT have changed my life. Literally. I knew when I put my first comment out there that I was stepping into an established society of commenters. I felt like it was already a clique as people commented back and forth all day long, not just talking about Twilight, but also about daily life. I was worried, because I had never commented on a blog before. But Kellan was oiled up and dirty and reading Purpose-Driven Life and Moon referenced the Song of Solomon—I couldn’t help but ask Kellan to reenact passages from the Song of Solomon with me. And low and behold, out of the 27 comments that day (can you believe it? So few!), both VickyB and Moon responded back to me, laughing at my joke! (Moon, the first few times you or UC commented on anything I wrote, I fangirled a little. I won’t lie.) I became a commenter in that moment. Then the Forum came along, and I really started to interact with the lovely ladies of LTT.
Then came Twitter, and I was a goner. I could Tweet all day long, look at pictures of Rob, and keep abreast of all the Twi news. And in the course of that, I really got to know some people. I began to associate names and faces with the funny, witty comments. I began to share more and more of myself. And it rose above being just about those “vegetarian vampires” or Rob’s hotness, and instead became about the relationships that I was lucky enough to develop.
When I first read Twilight (and subsequently New Moon, Eclipse, and Breaking Dawn in rapid succession), I had decided to be pragmatic. I gave up on having a dream in life. I didn’t have time for love, friendships, or my own creativity. There was work, and blankly staring at the TV, and that was pretty much it. I felt numb. Then (as dumb as it may seem), I read Twilight, and fell a little bit in love with Edward. And like an involuntary itch that you have to scratch, I found the need to write something. In the course of three months, I wrote an entire novel. I will never publish this novel, but it was an amazing experience, because I knew that I COULD write a whole book, if I wanted to. That was empowering to me. And I felt more alive than I had in a long time. Then I began to get to know people (now that I wasn’t holed up with my novel every night), and I started to really want to be friends with people I was meeting, not just to talk about Twilight.
Some of my best friends now are people I met here, and I couldn’t be more grateful. I’ve done a few meet-ups with some fantastic people—Brooke Lockart, Marta, Stage Manage This, It’s La Push Baby, Jordan the unicorn, and Krazy Kidd are people I’ve all been fortunate enough to meet in real life. I’ve got big vacation plans for this summer to meet up with even more fabulous people I’ve met here.
I could have never predicted, last year when I first hesitantly wrote my mini-letter to Kellan, how much I would need friends this year. That I would need people who lived outside of my life, who could listen, sympathize, and laugh with me. People to talk books and music and makeup with on any given day. People who would give me a new perspective and enrich my life. Letters to Twilight has given me people who seem hand-picked, just right for being my friends. They have been the key to my sanity when my world seems insane, the refuge from all the things I can’t control right now.
So, to my LTT friends, thank you for being good friends. For all the talks, the gifts, the encouragement, and the love, I thank you so much. My world would be bleak without your friendship.
To the cast of Twilight, thank you for being so ridiculously good-looking. Not to mention funny, bright and interesting enough for me to YouTube you, Google you, and find this place.
To Stephenie Meyer, thank you for listening to Bella and Edward and making them come to life in the pages of your books. Without them, I wouldn’t have had the impetus to make some changes in my life and to reach out to these people. You are to credit for creating this community in the first place.
To Moon and UC, thank you for being so incredibly funny and devoted and for becoming my friends, as well. I know you never anticipated this being what it is now, and that it’s evolved almost organically. But the fact is, without your willingness to slog through every day, whether you felt like it or not, this all would not be. You’ve brought together hundreds of people. You’ve spawned countless friendships. You’ve given us a spot in your lives, and in turn, have received a spot in ours. I love you ladies.
My love for Twilight may wane, my love for Rob cool to passing interest, but for the very real people here, I hope that our friendships last a very long time, indeed.
dangit Freya now my eye make ups all jacked up but I lurve you anyway! We’ve said it a billion times bit we’re glad we can be a place where friends meet and friendships are born. Twilight is just the catalyst for all this and we couldn’t be happier because of it. So have you made any friends through LTT/LTR or that Micheal Buble forum you’re apart of or the NKOTB fan club you were in back in the day? Tell me about i!
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