A few days ago I was just sitting at my desk at work and suddenly overcome with emotion. Like I cried real, actual tears. Why? Oh, just “Flightless bird, American mouth” by Iron & Wine from the Twi soundtrack came on. Why in the world did that make me cry!? Because I started remembering how it used to choke me up, and how I used to listen to the soundtrack over and over again… Remembering the story- Remembering Bella and Edward…their forbidden love… and DYING to see the movie again!
I’ve seen New Moon 4 times (I know, THAT’s it! Moon is killing me in the # of times she’s seen it!) It’s still in a few theaters in my area, although it’s not EVERYWHERE like it was…. but, honestly, I’m not sure I’m going to go see it again. I don’t NEED to see it. I NEEDED to see Twilight. I’d sit at my desk, I’d get all teary-eyed when Iron & Wine came on… and then I’d make plans to go see the movie.
It makes no sense.
It’s not rational.
Twilight isn’t good
New Moon is better (but still not very good)
So why am I choked up right now? Is it the reminder of how entranced I was a year ago by the phenomenon? Is it the remembrance of the hours I spent google-stalking Rob Pattinson and learning intimate details about all the cast members we hate slash love now?
The hype has died down. Forget for a second that New Moon has made almost 700 billion dollars world-wide- The Twilight movie’s hype lasted longer. Maybe it’s because they needed to make room for Avatar, but New Moon is disappearing in theaters all across the country. I think this time last year it was still going strong in theaters across the nation. Twilight wasn’t released world-wide all at once, so I suppose the hype and buzz just grew and grew into eventual explosion. New Moon feels like it all exploded at once on November 20th.
But why don’t I cry when I listen to the New Moon soundtrack? God knows it’s the most effing depressing thing out there. Bon Iver kills me when he sings with St. Vincent. Thom Yorke gives me butterfly feelings in my belly (get the soundtrack on vinyl if you have a record player- besides the fact that it’s annoyingly on 4 sides, it sounds so amazing!) but I don’t cry. There’s no ‘moment’ song like Iron & Wine’s song at the prom scene for me.
I’m sitting here with tears in my eyes, feeling like a crazy person (I am) because I’m crying over memories of a really bad movie and how it made me feel, and I’m wishing that its less bad but still sucky part 2 would make me feel the same…
Here’s to that mother effing leg hitch and whatever song comes with it that better make me cry a whole year later after I first hear it,
What do you think? Am I crazy? Feel the same? Self-conscious cause you know The Font is gonna read your comments?
Follow the jump for a special message from us!Moon and I wanted to make sure you didn’t miss the message we posted on our Twitter yesterday regarding Haiti:
LTT/LTR thoughts on Haiti……
As I drove my 1 hour commute into work, I was listening to BBC newshour and bawling as they described the scenes in Haiti and interviewed those who lost loved-ones. It was when I heard the voice of a little girl who doesn’t know yet that her sisters died because her dad can’t bare to tell her since both of her legs have been shattered and her head is split open- and she’s had no treatment- no medicine at all- that I started asking what I always do when tragedy hits: Why? Why them!? What is the point? How is this fair? Here I am, on my way in my warm car to a job that I got because I am an upper middle class American with a college education and money to pay bills. And I will spend my time today trying to figure out how to get other wealthy Americans to buy hot tubs. And I’ll laugh about Twilight and Rob while there is immense suffering only 1400 miles from where I live. How is that right? How is that fair? ….. It’s not. I only know that. I don’t know why. I don’t know how it will get better. I don’t know why I’m not suffering and they are. And I don’t know what I can do about it, 1400 miles away.
I feel guilty that I can’t do more… and then I remember that there are things I cling to in time of sorrow to uplift my spirit and get my mind off of the difficulties. And I know LTT/LTR is that for so many people….. So if you want to cry about Haiti, know I’m crying too… but if you need to ‘escape’ for awhile… well, we’re here.
Prayers for Haiti…… xo
Moon gets real today on LTR with some great resources to lend a hand to Haiti. Even if you’re not an LTR reader, check it out today!
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